So a friend of mines did something that was so damn courageous, I was so proud of her. She did something that she thought she could never do, and that was express how she felt without the baggage from her past stopping her. I mean, it had prevented her from expressing herself before but, she really did what she had to do. What a bad ass! Sometimes she thinks about all the opportunities that she have missed because she was too afraid of rejection, or choosing something or someone who may do more damage than good. I try to tell my friend that “you have no control over what happened in the past, it is over. Yes, it will hurt, but that feeling that you are feeling now will be temporary compared to the hurt you will suffer from in the future, if you continue to carry that burden.” I am not sure how many times I had to tell her this because it seem as though she slipped through the same cracks of despair and worrisome. My friend… overly emotional. lol
Remember when I said she did something that was so damn courageous? Well.. she told someone something that she carrying around with her for a long time. It wasn’t a bad thing, it was actually a very good thing. Shortly after, she started having second thoughts. Which is common for her, because she always reacted first and then she would just start to over think about things and drive herself crazy. I think it is the part of being in the unknown that makes her over think. Being in the unknown leaves room for miscommunications, misinterpretation, misunderstandings… I mean with all those misses how can anyone ever hit their target? Am I right? I don’t really know what she has planned next, she’s been so patient and so caring for so long, she has a tendency to put other people before her. I hate when she does that because after she has given so much of herself to other people, she is so drain, and emotionally exhausted and just unhappy. A habit that I know she wishes she could just stop doing.
My friend never really told someone who she was in love with them, I mean she rarely had it said to her. However when she was told this, she would always second guess it, sometimes jeopardizing what she had going for her. I wouldn’t blame her, she had been lied to many times, it was hard for her to detect from truth and fantasy. Probably still is. So she took a leap of faith and decided to profess her love to someone who she cares for, not for this person but for herself. It was an act of liberation for herself, to give herself permission to give love without condition, without expecting it in return, because isn’t that what love is? Unconditional? Sometimes it is hard to get out of your comfort zone and do the things that you wouldn’t normally do. But that point in life when you are sitting around in that “What If” bubble, coming up with all different types of scenarios of what could and couldn’t happen, it only deter you from doing it in the first place. Mark Zuckerberg once said, “The biggest risk is not taking any risk… In a world that changing really quickly, the only strategy that is guaranteed to fail is not taking risks.” Now maybe Mark was speaking business wise, but does that not also show on life in general? Not taking the risks to change your life to what you would like for it to be?
“Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace.” Amelia Earhart